Gratitude

It seems so cliche to say that this is way of moving and eating that is going to change my life.  But there it is again anyway.  In fact, this project RRM is changing my life right before my eyes by the day.  That is what we are all searching for on this journey right?  The tools to make permanent, healthy, change in our lives.  But how can I possibly know what the future will bring?  Isn’t it almost arrogance to be so damn sure of this process?  Of myself?  A little bit!  Yet I think I’ve said it at least once in all my social networking outlets: here, Twittter, my personal and RRM Facebook accounts.  I am changing my life.  This isn’t even a “fake it til you make it” thing.  I am going to reach my health goals.  There are few things in this life I have been so sure of.

As my daughter and I were sitting on the dock yesterday afternoon with our toes in the lake watching a family of new ducklings glide by, I was filled with a sense of peace, and of gratitude for my husband.  What a gift he is, what a gift our children are, and what an amazing life he has provided for us.  The photo I used for the banner on my facebook page was taken from our deck the same afternoon I started this page.  I actually live in this beautiful place.  As scary as the decision was to pack up and move away from the only home I had ever really known, I knew in my heart it was absolutely the right thing to do for my family.  There have been growing pains as we adjust to life in a completely different world, things that I struggle with.  And not just the 77 minute drive to the nearest Starbucks.  Believe it or not I’m fairly shy in person (until I’m not anymore) and it’s been hard for me to make friends.  I have finally, finally started to connect with people here and put down roots.  I feel grateful for that too.

Changing my lifestyle from a mostly sedentary one filled with poor food choices to an active one with mostly great food choices has had its growing pains too.  It’s quite literally a different world, one that exists outside of my living room with more emphasis and thought put into my time in the kitchen and how my ingredients got there, and much, much less television.  We live in such a beautiful place, what a wonderful side effect of this process that I actually go outside to enjoy it!  The truth is I can’t think of one aspect of my life that hasn’t been positively affected by this change I am making.  I am being creative, both with what we eat and in my writing again.  It feels amazing, I have missed it so much!  I am feeding my family and feeding my soul.

The motivation and support I receive from all of you is yet another thing I am so grateful for.  I am doing this for me, because I can’t stand not liking myself anymore, but now I’m doing it for you too.  Because you believe in me and believing in me and seeing me succeed at this might be the first step to believing in yourself.

I haven’t been drinking, I promise.  I’m just feeling the love today!  This seems like an appropriate time to sneak in a progress photo.

Gratitude indeed.

5 Comments

  • Melissa Frost

    September 16, 2013

    And this is just from changing the way you eat???…P.S. You mentioned before that you lost yourself somewhere along your journey…That’s where I’m at right now. I miss ME!!! Can’t wait to visit with ME again…SOON! Thanks for writing so openly!

    • Amber

      September 16, 2013

      Yes, most of my progress to this point was from dietary changes. Those changes did give me the energy to move more, so I was walking and playing with my daughter more. About this time I started incorporating some HIIT workouts into my week, usually once or twice. 🙂

  • Amanda RunToTheFinish

    July 11, 2013

    Yeahh what a wonderful share!! You really took the words out of my mouth about why I created the program I now host. I realized that for me it was never about following a diet, I just made small steady changes and suddenly I’d created a whole new way of living without even noticing it!

    • Amber

      July 12, 2013

      Thank you so much for the lovely comment Amanda! Cheers!

  • Anonymous

    July 6, 2013

    Amazing!